Weight sucks..

I hate my weight.

I have been trying so hard to get the motivation  the work out lately

but it is simply NOT WORKING.

I plan out my meals and my time to spend at the gym but I cannot seem to get myself there. 

I wish there was an easier way to help myself feel more confident about myself.

I wish I could be one of those people who hardly has to do anything.

I wish I could just feel good about the weight I am right now. 

But I'm not.
There's no two ways about it. 

I have to put in the time and effort in order to achieve my goals. 

I have to give it my all and work really hard to feel the confidence I desire. 

It won't be easy but I just have to do it!
Even though I have a boyfriend who loves me exactly how I look, I want to be 

healthy.

My brother is getting married in October and I will without a doubt be in quite a few pictures and I want to look back at those pictures and not hate what I see. 

It is time to stop dilly-dallying and just get down to it! 

Anyone with any suggestions on how to get myself motivated, 

HELP! 

Weddings are in the air!!

I was blessed today to be able to spend some time with my future sister-in-law to be.

Me and a group of friends and family drove to the Davids Bridal in Horseheads to 

begin the search for Rhonda Hinrichsens wedding dress!!

Sometimes this is a very long a tedious task to handle.

After many months of trying on dress after dress finally most women come to a final decision about which dress is the one to say "I do" in. 

People had told Rhonda that she would not end up with the dress that she went in there saying she wanted but she did. 

When we first got there, Rhonda showed the woman helping us a picture of the dress she wanted. 

After looking at the picture for a moment, the woman said she wasn't sure that they even had that dress in stock anymore but that she would try to find something similar for her.

About 3 dresses went on and then quickly came off because Rhonda knew they weren't for her.

When Erin went to look for more dresses, she suddenly peaked her head around the corner and told Rhonda that she had found it. 

The dress she had been looking for. 

IN. HER. SIZE.

In the entire store there was one dress and it was the perfect size for Rhonda. 

It was fate.
Rhonda put the dress on and came out of the dressing room with a look on her face that told us immediately that this was it. 

This was the dress that she wanted to be wearing when she committed herself to my brother. 

It all makes me think, 

is fate real?

 

Do you think that there really is someone out there with your best interest in mind and when it comes time that you really deserve it, they make it happen? 

I can't wait for the day that I finally get to pick out my special dress.

It took everything I had not to try something on. 

[I did however look through the book and I know what I want! :)]

Nate and Rhonda's special day is only 6 months away. 

Some might say that they are rushing things because they got engaged and will be married within 7 months but you know what?

When it's right, you know it, and they do. 

I wish Nate and Rhonda all the luck in the entire world.
They are so ready to make their commitment 

out and open with themselves, their friends and god. 

I cannot wait for October 6th, 2012 because that is the day I will truly be gaining a sister.

{then you better get workin' on a niece or nephew for me!}

FACEBOOK=DEVIL

    So lately, I've been seriously considering deleting my facebook. It just brings drama! I don't want to be involved in stupid drama. I don't care how your trip to walmart went and I'm sure you really don't care how bad I wanted some drinks tonight after work. It's just a bother. Maybe if I got rid of my facebook I could focus more on blogging.. {TOTALLY OFF TOPIC: but just to make a written record of it, Mike just walked to the kitchen and took his dirty dishes with him!!! Just gotta give credit where credit's due!} Anyway... 

  Sometimes I really feel like there is nothing good that comes of facebook. 

Whenever I get on there, I either come up with absolutely nothing or I hear about drama that I have nothing to do with and don't care to have anything to do with!

I get far more inspiration from Pinterest than I do facebook!

{maybe that's sad but it is what it is}

Does anyone else feel the same way I do? 

All I need in life is Michael and our home. 

I don't need the stupid drama and talk that goes on within Facebooks narrow walls. 

The only pros that really come from facebook is that I do get to keep in close contact with my family that lives in Florida. I used to be able to keep in contact with my bestest friend and cousin Aubrey Kinch but since she decided that Facebook was no good either, she no longer has one. 

Sometimes I think she is really wise for deciding to stay away from the social networking

that facebook offers. 

The friends and family that we want to talk to are never more than a phone call or a text message 

away.

If you don't talk to people after facebook is gone, then they probably weren't

that close to you in the first place. 

Love isn't about how many people like your status.

And comparing yourself to people is never a good idea. 

You need to learn to be a whole person first and foremost before you think about 

how other people live their lives. 

Sure, it is always helpful to get tips from people and Social networking is where the world is today. 

So, because of that.. this may not be goodbye but perhaps, a see ya later.. 

Because I may return eventually.

But as for right now, I have faaarrr more important things to think about than facebook. 

Thanks readers, because I think I've finally made up my mind. 

I'm going to sleep on it and make a decision in the morning since it's 3:30 am {and I did happen to just start my lovely monthly gift making me a tad bit more sensitive :)} 

But I believe that the right decision for me is to get rid of the facebook and live life!

Fully and completely live life. 

Not through a computer screen but out in the real world! 

[who knew someone could make such a big deal over FACEBOOK!] 

[a computer program should never take this much thought...]

-Emily <3