Lately, life has been difficult.
Everyday, I am hit with the overwhelming feeling like I do way too much for those around me. Don't misunderstand my message with this post, I love to help as best I can. I am the type of person who wants to give and give and give but the problem is, sometimes, I expect too much in return.
Recognition is what I want. Maybe a favor sent my direction. And I get that! A lot! My family and boyfriend are amazing to me and help me with a lot of what I need. I think I expect too much though.
I've found myself let down a lot lately because I am not always getting the recognition that I think I deserve but probably what is really going on, is that I should only be doing what I'm getting recognized for. Hence, anything that I am not getting props for, I shouldn't be doing.
My serious problem though, is that I can't stop! Perhaps recognition is a circle that never ends. I do a good deed and expect recognition but the real problem is that I am not recognizing the recognition I am receiving. It all sounds highly complicated and unnecessary. Life should not be this hard. This post probably seems kind of frazzled but that is how my mind is working right now. I'm doing for others, expecting too much, not saying anything when I don't receive it, and still getting upset about it. That's not fair either. Life is a two way street, and I'm doing my very best to learn to walk it.
1 comment:
It's so hard to not expect some recognition for your giving; I've learned with a giving soul you have to be completely selfless. Doing this makes you appreciate even those small thank yous and thoughts sent your way.
Miss you, Em.
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